Hello to all who read this. I've learned a very important lesson and would like to share it with you. I understand we come from all walks of life and many parts of the world but I hope this is relevant.
When I woke up this morning after an awful night's sleep, I didn't care.
I had been doing the same thing over and over for months because of many fears.
I was afraid of what people would think of me if I stopped going to work.
I was afraid of being able to pay for all my bills.
I was afraid of life.
Why I hadn't listened to all of the groaning and screams from my soul, I don't rightly know, but
driving to work
I considered ending it all. I had lost all hope. My life had lost all lustre.
Please, if you ever get to this point STOP. That is something that isn't to be endured but paid attention and given safe and proper action.
No amount of money should ever sway you into sacrificing yourself.
I had been misled into the thought that my specific job was the only way to support myself and my art when it actually took everything away from me. There are other jobs out there, in great variety and should not leave you with a number in the bank and nothing in your soul.
So be careful my friends, be aware and do not cheat yourself of living life to the fullest.